Shadows-of-Madness

Always there for the children Mummy loves me, I know she does, she loves me so very much.  She tends to me without complaint, she cares for me without asking for anything in return, she loves me and I love her. Yet there is this small voice at the back of my mind that says this is wrong, that I am not a baby, that I am older than this.  The voice screams at what is happening and tries to speak out, only to be silenced when mummy makes me drink from my ba ba.  The milk is so nummy and I enjoy it so much, it makes me feel so strange though. And there is the voice she leaves on when I go to sleep, a voice that says that I am a l

I’m fine Don’t let them see your tears, don’t let them see how much you are struggling.  Smile without sincerity and make it look real, smile without truth and they will think you are fine. Faking a smile is easy, but living with the lie is not.  So deep breath, exhale and lie because the truth is not what the world ever wants to see. I’m fine Hiding behind a wall of lies, longing to cry from the stress, aching to let all of the hurt out, always forcing the smile, always lying the lie.  People are so caught up on appearances that they do not question if the smile they see is a real smile or a false one. Liar, liar,

It was always interesting, watching them.  Labored breaths, meaningless whispers, elevated heart rate – always so routine.  So predictable.  They would babble on and on and on, begging, pleading with me.  I liked it.  Their terror fed me, took me to a glorious high that took forever to come down from.  I craved it.  The whirring of the drill, the tearing of flesh, the crinkle of plastic wrap, and the splashes on the walls and floor – nothing could top the rush I receive from that.  I would do anything to bask in that glorious feeling once more. And so I did. Over. And over. And over again. I wonder how long it will take for m

High heels, red lipstick on the corner where I live. Who are you? Does anyone know you? John said he knew you well the other day, with a cynical grin on his dry pale face. You stand on that corner, then the other one around the block where I use to play with my friends when I was kid. Empty street, no luck tonight. You look lonely yet defiant, the night wont beat you tonight. I am afraid of you but I want to know you and I don't know why. So I take a deep breath and go over to your corner and I asked; -how does it feel? You looked at me with confused face and you said; -I don't, YOU don't. I said what? and I looked around, you disappea

Today when I woke up and I started to or I should say wanted to start my daily routine I noticed, something was different, things had changed, everything had changed the world had entirely changed..it was another one. You can imagine my surprise and my frustration or maybe you can't it depends on who you are... who are you? you can answer later if you like, as I was saying I had awaken to an entirely new world, and in this world there was nobody there except me. does this sound like something you would like? have you ever thought about a world where only you existed? I had always felt alone but now I really was and that was scary but I didn